All I want for christmas

Now I'm not the kind of person who views christmas as the time of year to get your friends to buy you what you want, but that doesn't mean that I can't make a wishlist of items to dream about in the nights leading up to santa's arrival...

1) Nikon L120 camera in wine red
2) Proper hockey shoes and a graphite stick
3) Some cute room decor or wall art from Typo
4) New bedspread that doesn't look like it belongs in a cottage
5) Glossy magazines
6) Kimono Jacket made from delicate fabric
7) Hair curler
8) New alarm clock that doubles as an iPod dock
9) Retro bathers
10) New school bag - the kind with thin straps and floral patterent fabric
11) New glasses frames that don't make me look nerdy
12) Franc Essentials exfoliant to update my skincare regime
13) Blue or green kohl pencil for a differernt make-up look
14) Some new summer dresses in bold patterns

I'd rather be sleeping

You would be correct to assume that upon the conclusion of school for the year, a sense of celebration and the excitement for the fun-filled weeks of freedom to come would make anybody jump with joy. So why am I so restless that I have difficulty sitting still? It is that the summer holidays, which I have been anticipating for months before, looking forward to having the free time to do what I wish, no pressure of deadlines for assignments or exam revision, just pure me time, have finally happened and I have am clueless of what to do with myself? I feel tense and easily irritated with everyone who reminds me that in my spare time I should get to work, when they have no idea that I have worked myself into the ground, right to the point of burn out this year and the only thing I feel like doing is snoozing for a hundred years a là Sleeping beauty. It is as if no matter how much rest I get, I will never be able to feel motivated again.

There was a point after exams where my body had pushed itself to the end degree for two more bludge weeks of school, charging into holiday mode. Now I am free though, the limited days of relaxation presenting themselves before me as the only opportunities I have to get anything done before school starts for 2012, the pressure to get my family and friends Christmas presents before the twenty-fifth of December rolls around is gnawing at my every thought, but I simply cannot be bothered. I've just pushed myself so far that I am letting everything go - my nails have been picked down to the quick and are chipped, my hair is in desperate need of a trim and let spare you the details of the state of my desk.

Strangely, when you are counting the days until you are free from the school routine, longing for a change in the monotonous routine and it finally arrives, why is it that you then long for the comfort and certainty of the repetitive school routine again? Am I a sad individual for missing the routine? Or is it not the routine I am missing, but the feeling of progression and achievement that one feels during school time?

Why is life so unfair? And why can't I stop complaining about everything there is to complain about?